Posted in Life Lessons


The moment we wake up we are thrown into the sea of decision making.
Some decisions we make, we don’t think about because it has become an everyday habit. Do I wake up now, or a little later? Do I brush my teeth now or in the evening? Do I take a shower or not? Do I go to work/school today or not? You get the point.
We usually believe that big decisions determine the course of our life. But believe me when I tell you that even though small decisions don’t immediately affect our lives, they do over the long run. So, try not to make any decision without giving it a good thought because everything adds up over time.

Today I would like to talk about those big decisions in our lives. Like everyone else, I’ve made quite a few of them. Before I go any further, I want to make clear that every decision you make should be based on the kind of person you want to become. This is very crucial. A lot of us make decisions based on emotions. Emotions have often proven not to be trusted when it comes to making decisions. I wished someone told me that ealier. I’ve made so many emotional decisions that at the time made perfect sense but in the long run, really weren’t the right decision.
It’s honestly not an easy thing to do because emotions always fight their way to the surface of our hearts, which clouds our thoughts.

The upcoming decision is THE decision that has change the course of my life. I can definitely say that I’ve have learned a lot of lessons from it.

Stop existing, start living

I used to live a very anxious life.
I was continuously afraid because I was mentally and physically being abused almost on an everyday basis. Which left me with a broken soul and sleepless nights.

While I was living day in and day out in a prison-like home for 10years, I made a friend at school. She seemed to live her life freely while doing what she wanted to do. It wasn’t like she was doing anything mayor, I mean she was just a high school student, but she made me realize how much I would regret it if I end-up dead at that time. So, I started doing what every child does when things are not going their way. I started rebelling. Things got worst at home, but I didn’t mind because I was fighting for what I believed was right. After a while the situation became unbearable. I had several reasons why I didn’t want to leave all this time, but in the end, I choose for my happiness and left. I had fought the good fight.

The family of my friend I went to live with, were Christians, which allowed me to know the Christian faith a little bit more. Though I was a Muslim at the moment, I was very open towards other religions. Getting to know Christ has been the best thing that has ever happen to me. He transformed me from a fragile, broken and fearful girl, to a young woman who know who she is, whos she is, and what she is worth. I found peace in Christ that surpasses all understanding. I found rest in my soul and felt a love that I can’t begin to fantom. Christ did and is still doing all of that for me today through his death on the cross. John 3:16
For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life.

I believe that if I didn’t leave home, I probably wouldn’t have converted to Christianity as fast as I did. Because I grew up in a family that has been Muslims for generations and generations. I do believe that God called me to Himself since I was already searching for Him. I guess I can say that I was searching for Allah, but was found by Christ.

Jeremiah 29: 11: For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.

When I became a devoted Christian, the only thing that has truly helped me in my decision making is prayer and trust in God. The Bible teaches that the plans He has for us are plans to prosper us and not to harm us, plans that will give us hope and a future. Since He knows the beginning from the end and the end from the beginning, I have decided to trust in His plans for me. And His way has never been disappointing up-till now. Although I have to say that I don’t always directly see what He sees but, yet I choose to trust Him. Obedience to God is one of the major keys to Christianity.

Proverbs 3:5 – 6: Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways submit to him, and he will make your paths straight.

Posted in Life Lessons

“5 Life lessons from 5 books”

I lost count of the number of books I’ve read in 2019. I do remember that it wasn’t as much as I wanted it to be. But since it was the first year since I started reading books regularly, I consider it to be a success. I’ve learned some amazing things through them, things I want to remember forever.

1. The right fight: How to live a loving life – John Kennedy Vaughan

John uses 1 corinthians 13: 4 – 8 4Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. 5It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. 6Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. 7It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. 8Love never fails... To show us how if we don’t operate in love, we automatically start operating in fear.

I had listened to a lot of sermons on love and the importance of it. Especially as a Christian since it’s the greatest commandment in the Bible which Jesus Christ Himself taught us. But yet I only understood what love was after reading this book. I realized how much we as humans base our everyday decisions as well as our big decisions on fear… which is actually very normal since we live in a fallen world, but as Christian, we are called to be the light of the world, and our Lord asks of us to love above all things. The insight that I got from this book caused me to start reading way more than before. Because as weird as it sounds, I wasn’t aware of the fact that there were books on biblical themes written by Christian (pastors, prophets, apologist…)

When a person stops living in God-who is love-they cannot sustain the love in their lives that produces the blessings of fruit.

This book made me realize how much I was limiting my love for others based on the fear that it won’t be returned to me or simply because of pride. That might sound a bit weird doesn’t it?

If we believe love to be a feeling then we will continuously fight for the feeling we want-fight to win, fight to be respected, fight to not get hurt-and to destroy love itself in the process. What we are doing is fighting for what is beyond our control and, in the process, destroying what is within our control: the source of the feeling.

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2. Silence: The power of quiet in a world full of noiseThich Nhat Hanh

To be alive and walk on the Earth is a miracle, and yet most of us are running as if there were some better places to get to.

I am at the age at which it seems like every decision I make will be vital to my future, which is a very scary thought. So, I have often found myself in situations where I was striving with all my might for something that honestly wasn’t even that important to me…
Besides that, the whole society seems to be telling us that we need to do more, which continuously pushes us to be the best/greatest. Less is never an option. Which continuously keeps us busy with everything and at the same time, with nothing.

What are we so afraid of? We may feel an inner void, a sense of isolation, of sorrow, of restlessness. We may feel desolate and unloved. We may feel that we lack something important. Some of these feelings are very old and have been with us always, underneath all our doing and our thinking. Having plenty of stimuli makes it easy for us to distract ourselves from what we’re feeling. But when there is silence, all these things present themselves clearly.

This book taught me the importance of enjoying the moment. It helped me enjoy the precious little moments of life, by just being still and letting myself take hold of the moment. Whenever I start stressing, getting irritated or angry, I remind myself to check if what I am stressing about, being irritated about or getting angry about it is that important to steal my peace.

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3. The pursuit of Holiness – Jerry Bridges

What a strange kind of salvation do they desire that care not for holiness… they would be saved by Christ and yet be out of Christ in a fleshly state… They would have their sins forgiven, not that they may walk with God in love, in time to come, but that they may practice their enmity against Him without any fear of punishment.

This quote hits me so hard! These are things we barely speak or think about. Part of the reason I felt spoken to after reading this quote, is because of my lack of seeking for knowledge during those time and partially because I had never been taught the importance of being Holy like the way this book taught me. Even though I lived a devoted Christian life (or at least so I thought) and was part of a Chruch community.

It seemed that living a holy life was something for the pastors, apostels, prophets… those kinds of people. It seemed impossible for me as a simple servant. But I did know it was something that was part of being a Christian so, I prayed for it now and then, but never took it as something urgent. This book taught me that I too have a huge responsibility in my own holiness. It even says that God had already done His part by sending Christ to die for us. We are made Holy through the blood of Jesus Christ. And as the Holy Spirit lives in us, He always helps us to act out the desires of God in our lives.

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4. The purpose driven life – Rick Warren

Before I read this book, I did things with the thought that God was for me. Meaning that He existed for my good. To help me, guide me and to give me my greatest desires (which were close to what I believed His desires were for me). As am writing this down I realize how stupid and crazy that sounds. But then again, in those times my faith was built on a prosperity Gospel. Which at the moment I didn’t know. I didn’t even know such a thing existed. After reading this book my eyes opened to certain things and that’s when I started having more and more disagreements within my local church.

You were made by God and for God – and until you understand that, life will never make sense. It is only in God that we discover our origin, our identity, our meaning, our purpose, our significance, and our destiny. Every other path leads to a dead end.

So what this book taught me was that I was made for God and not the other way around. And because He created me for Himself, He knows exactly why He made me. Certain things only started making sense after understanding and accepting this fact. These are the benefits the writter promises after finishing the book:

  • It will explain the meaning of your life.
  • It will simplify your life.
  • It will focus your life.
  • It will increase your motivation.
  • It will prepare you for eternity.

Am happy to say that they were not just empty words… The book really did do what the writer said it would.

‘Do not conform to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God’s will is—his good, pleasing and perfect will. ‘ Romans 12:2

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5. Discerning the voice of God – Priscilla Shirer

There was one specific incident that got me very frustrated.
I dream a lot when am sleeping. The bible teaches us that one way God speaks to His people is through dreams. But these dreams were so symbolic and prophetic that I couldn’t even start to deceiver them with the little knowledge I had of God. So, because the bible also teaches us to pray for dreams, I prayed. But I wasn’t getting any answers. I got frustrated because I felt like I was doing everything the bible told me to do concerning these dreams but God still wasn’t answering me. I never asked for the dreams so, why wasn’t He answering me? This went on for several months. It even got to a point that I stopped praying and one way or another closed my Spirit from receiving dreams. So, yes the frustration was real!

Have you sincerely taken time to hear, to see, to wait, to watch-to allow for the margins that would give God an opportunity to offer you that which you claim to desire so earnestly? Or have you already filled every conceivable space with your own opinions, ideas, decisions, and actions-space that God might otherwise fill with His perfectly timed and precisioned and personal insight?

Y’all I tell you, I felt so convicted after reading that paragraph…
It just struck me! I wasn’t even listening, to begin with.
The worst part is that I’m known to be a very good listener. I love to listen to people. I am the kind of person who is very engaging in conversations by asking questions etc. But for one reason or another when it came to God, I never had the patience to listen long enough. It never struck me that I had to listen to Him as I listen to others around me.

I knew I wasn’t listening because I felt the conviction, but also because after reflecting on the situation, I could see that all I did was pray about it. I didn’t take time to see, hear or watch.

‘And he said to me, “Son of man, listen carefully and take to heart all the words I speak to you. ‘ Ezekiel 3:10

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Which books have taught you lessons you will never forget? Let me know in the comment below. Have a blessed day!

Posted in Spiritual Discipline


What is fasting?

The Bible teaches us that fasting = going without food for a period of time in order to focus on God through prayer.

To make the matter complete, we would add that fasting, if we conceive of it truly, must not only be confined to the question of food and drink; fasting should really be made to include abstince from anything which is legitimate in and of itself for the sake of some special spiritual purpose. There are many bodily functions that are right and normal and perfectly legitimate, but which for special peculiar reasons in certain circumstances should be controlled.

Martyn Lloyd-Jones

There are other ways to fast besides going without food. These ways the Bible doesn’t directly teach on, but the Bible does teach us to get rid of anything that can make us stumble (Matthew 5:30). In this generation, we have so much that can make us stumble. It’s pretty much like the world is waiting to cater to our sins and distractions. So, you might not have to cut your arm, but maybe the internet for some time, or social media whatever takes a lot of your time. The time you can spend in prayer or reading the Word of God.

Several Kinds of fasting:

  • Normal fast: abstaining from all food, but not from water (Matthew 4:2, Luke 4:2)
  • Partial fast: limitation of the diet, but not abstention from all food (Daniël 1:12, Matthew 3:4).
  • Absolute fast: abstaining from all food and drink (Ezra 10:6, Esther 4:16)
  • Private fast: fasting in a way not to be noticed by others. (Matthew 6: 16 – 18)There are some others as well, but I would like to leave it at this for this post.

I do want to mention that point 4 is actually something that is always included in every fast. We are not to go around telling people of the fact that we are fasting. 

For the problem is not wether another person knows or asks about your fast, but wether you want him or her to know or asks so you can appear more spiritual.

Donald S. Whitney

Godly fasting:
= fasting with the purpose to get closer to God.​ Examples of Godly fasts:

  • To strengthen prayer (Daniel 9: 3)

Fasting is calculated to bring a note of urgency and importunity into our prayer, and to give force to our pleading in the court of heaven. The man who prays with fasting is giving heaven notice that he is truly in earnestness in a divinely appointed way. He is using a means that God has chosen to make his voice to be heard on high.

Arthur Wallis
  • To seek God’s guidance (Acts 14:23)

You can pray about any decision that can have a direct impact on your life. The new year fasting I spoke about in my last post is a good example of this kind of fasting. I have been fasting at the beginning of every year for the past 3 years, simply to ask for the guidance of God throughout the year. Another example of this kind of fasting was when I fasted for the right college, right subject to study and the right place to live. So, like I said before it really can be about anything that can have a direct impact on your life.

  • To express grief (1 Samuel 20:34)

“Fasting can be a means of expressing grief for the sins of others, such as for the sins of people within your church or for sins by your country.” For example, The moment that the Holy Spirit really started working in me, he opened my eyes not only to see my own sins but also the sins of my church members and of my country. It was more the general sins that others might see as just something minor. For a week-long I had such an extreme sadness living in me, a heaviness on my chest I simply can’t explain. So, I decided to fast and pray for all our sins. To express my grief towards God, beg for mercy and ask for protection for those who did what they did out of lack of knowledge.

  • To seek Deliverance or Protection (Esther ​4:16)

15Then Esther sent this reply to Mordecai: 16“Go, gather together all the Jews who are in Susa, and fast for me. Do not eat or drink for three days, night or day. I and my attendants will fast as you do. When this is done, I will go to the king, even though it is against the law. And if I perish, I perish.”

  • To express Repentance and the Return to God (Joel 2:12)

In 2018 I fasted once every week for exactly this reason. Because I was very aware of the fact that going to church on Sundays alone wasn’t enough to keep growing as a Christian. Besides that, I also knew that the flow of life could take me away from the path of God. So, I fasted to ask for forgiveness for any sin I might have committed in that week and it also served as a remembrance to return to God.

  • To humble oneself before God (Psalm 35:13)

This is also one of the reasons why I fasted once a week in the year 2018. It truly helped me humble my self before God because it reminded me how much I needed God.

By this we must not conclude that the act of fasting has some virtuous power, and that we have made ourselves more humble; there is no virtue in fallen man by which he can make himself more godly; there is, however, virtue in the divinely appointed means of grace. If we, by the power of the Holy Spirit, mortify the deeds of the body (through fasting), we shall grow in grace, but the glory of such change will be God’s alone. For as long as I can remember I was thaught that because fasting itself is a sacrifice, the act itself is more than enough to get God’s favor for what I was fasting for. Which in essence didn’t make any sense, because it will then come to the fact that I’m getting paid for my work, which goes against the sovereignty and grace of God.

David Smith
  • To express concern for the work of God (Nehemiah 1: 3 – 4)

They said to me, “Those who survived the exile and are back in the province are in great trouble and disgrace. The wall of Jerusalem is broken down, and its gates have been burned with fire.” 4When I heard these things, I sat down and wept. For some days I mourned and fasted and prayed before the God of heaven.

  • ​To minister to the needs of others (Isaiah 58)

I have never done this kind of fasting, but I use to be a Muslim and during the Ramadan it is known to be on your best behavior, combine with good deeds for the poor. But what I noticed is that as sincere those deeds were, they also almost disappeared after the Ramadan period. Most of us also simply went back to our old ways after the fasting period. Isaiah says it all in

Isaiah 58: … For day after day they seek me out;they seem eager to know my ways, as if they were a nation that does what is right and has not forsaken the commands of its God. They ask me for just decisions and seem eager for God to come near them. … “Yet on the day of your fasting, you do as you pleaseand exploit all your workers. 4Your fasting ends in quarreling and strife, and in striking each other with wicked fists. You cannot fast as you do today and expect your voice to be heard on high.

  • To overcome temptation and dedicate yourself to God (Matthew 4: 1 – 11)

One principle we learn form Jesus’ example is this: Fasting is a way to overcoming temptation and of freshly dedicating ourselves to the Father.

Donald S. Whitney

There are general things that tempt us all, but there are also more specific areas of our personal lives that might be or bring temptations into our lives. It is of great importance to take action against this. Because sin that one doesn’t address might grow to lead one to the end.

  • To express Love and Worship to God (Luke 2: 37)

The very first time I fasted as a Christian was to express my gratitude toward God for His mercy and Grace. As you might have read in my introduction post, I use to have a very hard time living at home which led to some horrible experiences. So, I fasted to thank God for getting me out of that situation and for not giving up on me. Do know that if your expression of love and worship is not sincere during your fasting, it will become a very hard fasting period. But if it is, it will be so much easier! I personally bearly felt anything at all. ​

Fasting with a purpose

I’ve already spoken about this in the New year fasting post, but I would like to add this to it.

Whitout a purpose, fasting can be a miserable, self-centred experience about willpower and endurance. Whithout a clear biblical purpose, fasting becomes an end in itself. Every hunger pang only makes you calculate the time remaining until you can eat. Such thinking disconnects the experience in your mind and heart from the gospel and descends into the deception that perhaps your suffering will earn God’s favor. Although the physical discomfort is unpleasing, perhaps even painful, it is important to feel some degree of hunger during your fast. Your hunger helps you, serving as continual reminder of your spiritual purpose.

Donald S. Whitney

Fasting and prayer

Fasting without prayer is a huge waste of time. It’s no different from a simple diet. I have heard this being said: “Being a Christian is like having a weapon and the bullet of that weapon is prayer”.

In giving us the privilege of fasting as well as praying God had added a powerful weapon to our spiritual armory.

Arthur Wallis

Even though the Bible teaches us that Jesus expected us to pray (Matthew 6: 16 – 17), prayer is one of the most neglected spiritual disciplines. I must confess that my prayer life is way beneath what I would like it to be aswell, but this doesn’t keep me from praying during any fasting period I commit myself to. I have experienced that fasting really does strength one’s prayer life. 

Maybe a small tip if you are having difficulties praying: you can use the Psalm to pray, It really contains about every subject we deal with as Christians. Besides that, there are also prayer books you can buy. You can start with those, as you use those, you will start to have words of your own. But the best way to learn how to pray is by reading the Bible. Because prayer is in some way an expression of what one knows about God. You can’t speak of what you don’t know.

Your heart position while doing Godly purposed kind of fasting is of great importance to God. God, in general, is way more interested in our heart posture than anything else. So, definitely consider your reason for fasting, reflects on if you are doing it for the right reason? or just as a religious duty?

Any blessing which is bestowed by the Father upon His undeserving children must be considered to be an act of grace. We fail to appreciate the mercy of the Lord if we think that by our doing something we have forced (or even coerced) God to grant that blessing which we have asked for… All of our fasting, therefore, must be on this basis; we should use scriptural means whereby we are melted into a more complete realization of the purposes of the Lord in our life, church, community, and nation.

David Smith


 Book: “Spiritual disciplines for the Christian life”​ (pages 191 – 2019)

The Bible: see the verses noted in the text.

Posted in Spiritual Discipline

New year Fasting

I write this because I’ve been very content with the end result of fasting at the beginning of the year. This will be my third time doing it and am honestly very excited.
Jesus thought us that certain things can’t be over-won with prayer only, fasting is a spiritual discipline that is not very loved because it always means that you have to sacrifice something, but I still want to recommend you give it a chance.

Two years ago I got sick and tired of being a mediocre Christian. I saw others growing around me and as much as I wished I was growing as they were, I wasn’t ready to do what I knew it took to grow. When I decided to grow, be better and do better as a Christian, I knew I had to do more than only try to spend time in prayer and reading the Bible, because I tried those things before, and that didn’t go very well. I got sleepy when I attempted to read the bible and I all of a sudden didn’t have anything to say when I planned to pray. Which is not like me at all. But I did notice that when we had to fast for something in our church, I took it very seriously and was able to complete them without too many struggles. 

So, I started my 2018 with a determination to grow and a fasting plan. Those times in fasting helped me realize how important growing in my faith was to me and it also helped me to carry that decision more in my heart and through the grace of God, led me to actually cultivate spiritual stability and that brought emotional stability with it.

The second time I decided to fast was at the beginning of this year. 2019. I was very excited to start my year with working on my relationship with my God and letting Him know that I need His presence and help to make this year a successful year. My goal for 2019 was to learn how to love the way God Himself loved his children and to cultivate some kind off financial stability. This time I did the Daniël fasting. I really “really” loved this kind of fasting, because it led to way more than I fasted for.

What is the Daniël fast?
Daniël is a prophet of the old testament in the Bible and He and his friends were chosen to be servants of the king of Babylon, Nebuchadnezzar. Daniël 1: 1 – 21

Daniël 1: 1 – 21

… Daniel then said to the guard whom the chief official had appointed over Daniel, Hananiah, Mishael, and Azariah, 12“Please test your servants for ten days: Give us nothing but vegetables to eat and water to drink. 13Then compare our appearance with that of the young men who eat the royal food, and treat your servants in accordance with what you see.” 14So he agreed to this and tested them for ten days.15At the end of the ten days they looked healthier and better nourished than any of the young men who ate the royal food. ..

In these verses, we see how Daniël and his friends fasted for 10 days only on vegetables and water. This they did for their preparation to become servants of the king in the palace. This is not the fasting I did, although I’m pretty sure I will try in the future. The one that I did was from Daniël 10: 1 – 3.

Daniel 10: 1 – 3

…2At that time I, Daniel, mourned for three weeks. 3I ate no choice food; no meat or wine touched my lips; and I used no lotions at all until the three weeks were over.

Why I loved this fast?

  1. I loved how it cleared my skin,
  2. I had a whole lot more energy, therefore I got a lot more done through the day.
  3. I cultivated a minimalistic mindset. Since I was decluttering my food, it started to expand to other areas of my life. Which I really loved, because I didn’t even know that I had so much clutter in my life in general. 
  4. It helped me be more aware of what I put in my body. Which led me to try to become vegetarian.  Yes you read it right. I “tried”. Even though I loved the results of it, it wasn’t enough to make me a vegetarian for life.

When I decided to do the Daniël fasting, I wasn’t sure what I was allowed to eat. So, I started to look it up on the internet, but that actually really confused me more… because the one would say that a certain food was allowed and the other would say, it wasn’t. So, I would personally advise that you just focus on the things the bible specifically mentions and let yourself be led by the Holy Spirit. But do keep one thing in mind. “I ate no choice food” meaning… The food you just love, you will have to sacrifice during this fasting.

Your purpose for fasting.

I would like to mention the importants of your purpose of fasting. First of all, fasting without a Godly purpose is a waste of time. I myself noticed that when I fasted without a good enough reason for me, it would be so much harder to continue or even finish it. Also when you fast, make sure to not fast for a bunch of things at once. Pick one or two to give all your attention to, that will bring you much better results.

Our own responsibility
Besides the fact that we are at the mercy of God, I’ve also learned that I had a great responsibility in the making happen what I fasted for. For example, the second time I fasted, I fasted to become a more loving and compassionate person, specifically towards others. Selflove is also very important, but I believed I had more than enough of that. Besides that, I also fasted that in that same year, I would have some kind of financial stability. But, I was only able to accomplish just one of the two. The reason why was simply because I was more intentional about the one and not so much about the other even though God gave me a great opportunity to able to do well on the other as well. 

I was only able to accomplish becoming a more loving and compassionate person because every single time anything would happen that honestly annoyed me to death, I deliberately choose to act in love. This is something I learned from a book. The right fight,  written by John Kenndy Vaughan. A book that I highly recommend. While when it came to becoming financially stable, I realize that as much as I wanted it, I wasn’t ready to do what it took to accomplish that goal. Even though God had given me a huge business opportunity at the end of 2018. So, if I truly wanted to grow my finance all I had to do was work on that. But even that I didn’t take seriously. This opened my eyes towards my own responsibility towards my prayer request to God.

The Sovereignity of God

Because fasting always requires sacrificing something, wheater that is time, food or fun, it’s often thought that because of the sacrifice your making God “will/has to” answer your prayers. But I want to make clear that God is Sovereign. He doesn’t own us anything! But because He is merciful, loving and compassionate He often does answer us. So, it might be helpful to know that God only sustains His plans for our life’s.

Meaning…just because you decide to fast doesn’t mean God, therefore, has to give you what you asked for at the end of the year. I would totally understand if you decide to pass after reading that. The very first time I learned of God’s sovereignty got me discouraged aswell. But don’t forget that He is ALSO a loving, compassionate and merciful God. That in itself should be a great encouragement for us, well at least enough to at least try.

Matthew 6: 18

so that it will not be obvious to others that you are fasting, but only to your Father, who is unseen; and your Father, who sees what is done in secret, will reward you.

This tells us that God WILL reward us if we fast correctly and for Godly purposes. To my understanding of God, who sustains only His plans, the reward that is spoken about here, doesn’t mean the specific thing you prayed for. God can reward us in ways we don’t even recognize as a ‘reward’ directly. It might even come across as another ‘problem’. So once again, keep in mind that God is Sovereign.

If you fast and at the ending of your fasting period or awhile later, you notice that God didn’t give you what you asked for, don’t get angry with Him. Trust that He knows best and that He probably has a better plan for you. Take time to rest in that assurance.

In my next post, which will be on the 29th of December, I will get more into fasting itself. While answering these questions:

  • why is it important to fast?
  • what are the different kinds of fasting?
  • what is Godly fasting?
  • The important of repentance during the fasting period…

Posted in About



My name is Hawanatu Dumbuya

I am a young woman who used to go through life without any hope, depressed, angry, aggressive, anxious, … I could go on for a while. I lived my life on an automatic pilot day in and day out. While being abused verbally, mentally, physically …, in the comfort of my own home (or at least that’s what it was supposed to be. A home). A young bright, lively and kind girl ends up living (or should I say exciting) just like that day in and day out.

This is the awful truth about my life before Christ found me and breathed life into me again. He gave me my joy back, thaught me true love, I found a peace that I cannot fantom, thaught me who I am and showed me what I am worth. I, who used to live such an empty life, now my cup runs over! And that’s exactly the reason why I’ve started this blog. I know how many more people are still struggling with the same things that I have gone through and now I’ve been set free from all those bondages, and am currently still being set free from some, I want nothing else but to share my journey with others. I hope to inspire non-Christians to take some kind of interest in the Christian faith because, as a living testimony I tell you that Jesus Christ is the savior the world needs. I also hope to inspire those who already are Christians to take the next step in their Christian lifestyle.
Just so to be clear am not a perfect Christian, I don’t have everything in order, I still have my ups and downs as I am trying to fulfill my God-given purpose, I have tons of questions and doubts, but all I know is that I don’t want to live a second without Jesus Christ. Life is simply not worth living without Him.

So, Welcome into my deepest thoughts and let’s get this journey started!