Posted in Interviews

“Big dreams with a even bigger God”

This is my way of giving something back to my Savior, of course it’s nothing compared to what He did on the cross, but I know it’s because of his blood and bruises that I am healed.

Who is Lenaa I AM in one sentence?

A young woman with big dreams with a bigger God.


What is the inspiration for your name?


Before I started as a solo artist, I wanted to start as a duo with my younger sister. We were planning to go by the name “Linaa Lenaa”. But we didn’t continue with that project because even though my younger sister loved music, she wanted to focus on other things. I was in my feelings about the situation. So, one day I decided to pray about it. I was very nervous because I had to change the vision and I felt like I wasn’t good/talented enough to go out there as a solo artist. While I was praying, I strongly felt the presence of the Holy Spirit. He started to speak to me, and I remember asking Him this question: “Every song I’ve written is a duet, how am I going to do this?” And He replied: “I AM your duo now, you and me. You will not be alone because I am with you.” Then He led me to the book of Exodus 3:14 “God said to Moses, “I AM WHO I AM. This is what you are to say to the Israelites: ‘I AM has sent me to you.’” So that night instead of “Linaa Lenaa” it became “Lenaa I AM” As in Lenaa and The Great I AM.

Why did you choose to become a Gospel singer instead of a mainstream music singer? And was it a difficult decision?


This is my way of giving something back to my Savior, of course it’s nothing compared to what He did on the cross, but I know it’s because of his blood and bruises that I am healed. He changed me, and a lot of my old/bad habits, took me out of depression, and many other situations. He changed me from the inside out (He’s still working on me daily btw). His love is pure and unconditional. So, the question is why not become a Gospel singer?

As a Gospel singer, how do you perceive mainstream music?


I believe it’s important to have a personal relationship with God because the works of the Holy Spirit is always on a personal level. I always ask myself the questions: “Is it beneficial? Does it affect my spirit? Change my mood? or does it distract me from the things God told me to do?” I think it’s something you need to figure out for yourself and be honest about it. 

I know that you recently brought out your single “Lost” what would you say is the inspiration of this song?


My single “Lost” was my prayer, it was a cry to God, whom I needed at that moment. So, I guess I would say, my difficulties.


Who would you say is your greatest inspiration?


Mary Mary, a gospel duo, who played a big part in the lives of my little sister and I. That’s why I came up with the duo “Linaa Lenaa” in the first place. They were one of the biggest gospel artists that I knew. I always loved the way they sang, and how they always came up with new sounds.

What is your goal as an Artiest?


My Goal is to enlarge the kingdom of God, motivating people by introducing them to Jesus Christ and bringing them joy, peace and hope and all the other good stuff that comes with having Christ in your life. Also, to show others that you really can do all things through Christ who strengthens you.


What would you say to anyone who is struggling to decide to follow their dreams even though it might be a risky dream?

Just do it. Get out of your head, don’t look at what you have or don’t have, and don’t look at your weaknesses. Start to find strength/positivity in your weaknesses because God Has already giving you the tools that you need. And spend a lot, a lot, a lot, a lot of time with the Lord and His Word, and just do it!

Do you worry about not succeeding?


To be honest I used to, even until a few weeks ago. But not anymore because I know who I am.

Posted in Spiritual Discipline

Daniel Fast Journey 2020

I will start off saying that this fast really wasn’t half as easy as I thought It would be. Which I’m glad about because if it would have been easy it, wouldn’t have been a fast. I thought it would be easy because I love fruits and I barely buy any snacks at all. So, yes it wasn’t hard during the time I was at home. You can probably already guess it…
Things got harder the times I was outside, either at work, with families or during the times I was doing a specific activity during which I had the habit of snacking, like reading for an example.

I was very motivated and ready to go for it in the first and a half weeks. The second half of that week and the last week were a lot harder, especially the last week. I found myself losing a lot of focus during those weeks. Which is a shame, but that’s the struggle of a long fast.

When you scroll down, you will see the things I fasted for and the lessons I received in each area. I hope that these lessons can also be off help to you.

I fasted for:

  • Growth in my prayer life:
    • schedule it on a specific time
    • use bible verses to pray with
    • you can start praying from the inside-out or the outside-in. Meaning: you can start praying for yourself and end with praying for others. That would be from the inside-out, or you can pray the other way around.
    • Prayer is realizing you need God.
    • An essential element of humility = prayer.
    • 2 Chronicles 15:2 The Lord is with you when you are with him. If you seek him, he will be found by you, but if you forsake him, he will forsake you. 
    • When you pray, you’re not begging God. You’ve been invited to ask, seek and knock. Matthew 7:7
  • Become more zealous for Christ:
    • James 1:27 Religion that God our Father accepts as pure and faultless is this: to look after orphans and widows in their distress and to keep oneself from being polluted by the world.
      • This specific vers helped me truly realized where the heart of God lies. For a very long time, I’ve mixed God’s priority with the world’s priority one way or another which lead me to make things very complicated for myself. I can now start focussing on the things that are truly important to God. I must say that reading the Bible also helped me to get more insight into these things.
  • Proverbs 29:18 … Where there is no revelation, the people cast off restraint; But happy is he who keeps the law. (Where there is no vision people perish)
    • I came across this verse while listening to a sermon of MK form TC and he once more reminded me of the importance of knowing where am going, knowing what the goal is. Because the things of the world and the things of God get mixed-up so easily these days, it helps to know what your goal/vision is in life.
  • Matthew 5: “You are the salt of the earth. But if the salt loses its saltiness, how can it be made salty again? It is no longer good for anything, except to be thrown out and trampled underfoot. 14  “You are the light of the world. A town built on a hill cannot be hidden. 15Neither do people light a lamp and put it under a bowl. Instead, they put it on its stand, and it gives light to everyone in the house. 16In the same way, let your light shine before others, that they may see your good deeds and glorify your Father in heaven.
    • Being the SALT of the earth means being valuable, common, indispensable, and useful. (Zeke AIPC)
    • Being the LIGHT of the world means that you are important and that the world needs your light to shine bright, not to be deemed or hidden. (Zeke AIPC)
    • This teaching has once more anchored my Identity in Christ!
  • Growth in holiness and purity:
    • If you don’t admit that your weakness is real, you can’t ever be strong in that area. (Mike T. TC)
    • My weakness is only a weakness if I’m trying to do things in my own strength. But it becomes a gift if I do things being aware the grace of God in my life. (Charles TC)
    • This fast made me realize that even though I really desire to become holy, pure and blameless before God, I can’t do it with my own strength. I need God’s help.

The lesson that kept repeating over and over again was the importance of the things I exposed my eyes to. I noticed again and again how much that influent me above all other things.

I didn’t pray for things that I can receive directly. They’re things that take time to cultivate. So, as you can read, God gave me instructions on how I can achieve these things over time. As you also may have seen, they’re things that have a lot to do with my current state. Things I can start doing if I want to get to that goal.

Sometimes when we request something from God, the most important part can be that we must change certain things in our lives first or change a certain mindset before we can achieve/receive our request.

Posted in Spiritual Discipline

How to read the entire Bible in 2 years

Two years ago I got sick and tired of being a mediocre Christian. I saw others growing around me and as much as I wished I was growing as they were, I wasn’t ready to do what I knew it took to grow. When I decided to grow, be better and do better as a Christian, I knew I had to do more…

Reasons why I wanted to be committed to every day Bible reading:

  1. wanting to understand: At a certain moment, I wanted to get more out of the sermons that I listened to. Because I didn’t know the stories in the Bible, I couldn’t always follow what was being said or understand the underlying meaning of things.
  2. Conviction: I started to feel a little phony whenever I would say that I am a Christian because I knew that I honestly barely knew anything of what I was proclaiming to be.
  3. Desire: As my love for God and (little by little) my knowledge of God was growing, I started desiring to know Him. I wanted to able to understand what I already knew, and I wanted to know what I didn’t know.

Reading the Bible in 2 years wasn’t that much of a hassle as I thought It would be. I didn’t plan to read the Bible in 2 years. It actually sorts of happened. I just decided to commit to reading the Bible every single day in 2018, and it happened that I could read through it that way in 2 years.

I believe you can already see that if I truly read the Bible every single day, I would’ve finished it way earlier then 2 years. I didn’t read the Bible every single day because of the hassle of everyday life, but whenever I would slacked off, I would pick myself back up and recommit myself. The funny thing is that you actually DO notice when your spirit is running low because The Holy Spirit feeds on prayer and The Word. So, when you stop doing that, you starve The Spirit of God in you, and that was my alarm every single time.

How I did it practically:

These are the Bible reading plans that have helped me to read through my Bible these past 2 years. They pretty much cover the whole Bible. I really can’t recommend the Youversion Bible app or at Bible. com enough. It’s such an amazing tool that has helped me through so many subjects. Some I’ve read alone, and others I read with friends.

  • The Old Testament – The books of History
  • The Old Testament – The books of Wisdom
  • The Old Testament – Major Prophets
  • The Old Testament – Minor Prophets
  • 60 day New Testament Journey

What I also found very helpful was that there is also an option to listen to the Bible. A lot of the translations have this option, but not every single one of them yet. This has been such an effective tool for a day-dreamer like me. Depending on what time I had to be somewhere, work, school or an appointment, I would get up very early. I found myself to be most productive in the mornings so, reading the Bible during that time is the easiest for me. But the very 1h30m, I really can’t concentrate. I day-dream a lot! Listening and reading along have helped me to be productive even during those moments. Besides that, it’s a great way to hear the Word of God for people who can’t read.

If reading through the Bible is too big of a jump for you, the Youversion Bible app also has reading plans on subjects, and you can search for any subject you wish. For example worry, focus, decisions, prayer, love, faith, etc. It’s all up to you.

Benefits of having read the whole Bible one’s:

  • There haven’t been any sermon that I found difficult to follow or understand.
    • Why is this important: If you don’t know the word of God you will be like a wave going from left to right and back and forth. Anyone can tell you anything, and you will believe it because you don’t know better anyway. This is why being a Prophet in this generation makes so much money, the people can’t even distinguish between false or right teaching.
  • I have come to know Jesus and God the Father way better than before which has rooted my faith even more.
    • Why is this important: Knowing the word of God is like water to a plant for a Christian. If we don’t get that water, we dry up and every little wind that comes by just swipes us up like a feather. Bye-bye, perseverance.
  • I can now distinguish between a false and sincere servant of God through what they preach.
    • Why is this important: Because there are so many false teachers out there today, this would be one of the most important lessons I’ve learned through knowing the Bible. Believe it or not, but a lot of Christians today perish because of a lack of knowledge which is honestly a shame because we have all the researches that we need right under our nose. Hosea 4: 6 My people are destroyed from lack of knowledge…

These are not condemnations, but my very own experiences and things I’ve seen around me in Christian communities.

Reading the Bible is not something you do based on wishful thinking. It’s a commitment you make followed up by discipline. Life will always give you reasons why you don’t have time to read the Word of God. But the Bible teaches in Matthew 4:4 But Jesus told him, “No! The Scriptures say,‘People do not live by bread alone, but by every word that comes from the mouth of God. So, Don’t be fooled.

So, to sum it all up:
Having a good reason why you want to read the Bible is very crucial. Like everything else we want to achieve I guess. When the ‘why’ is settled and clear, it will be a lot easier to commit to the goal.

I would very much like it if you didn’t take my word of it and actually tried it yourself.

Posted in Life Lessons

Decisions

The moment we wake up we are thrown into the sea of decision making.
Some decisions we make, we don’t think about because it has become an everyday habit. Do I wake up now, or a little later? Do I brush my teeth now or in the evening? Do I take a shower or not? Do I go to work/school today or not? You get the point.
We usually believe that big decisions determine the course of our life. But believe me when I tell you that even though small decisions don’t immediately affect our lives, they do over the long run. So, try not to make any decision without giving it a good thought because everything adds up over time.

Today I would like to talk about those big decisions in our lives. Like everyone else, I’ve made quite a few of them. Before I go any further, I want to make clear that every decision you make should be based on the kind of person you want to become. This is very crucial. A lot of us make decisions based on emotions. Emotions have often proven not to be trusted when it comes to making decisions. I wished someone told me that ealier. I’ve made so many emotional decisions that at the time made perfect sense but in the long run, really weren’t the right decision.
It’s honestly not an easy thing to do because emotions always fight their way to the surface of our hearts, which clouds our thoughts.

The upcoming decision is THE decision that has change the course of my life. I can definitely say that I’ve have learned a lot of lessons from it.

Stop existing, start living

I used to live a very anxious life.
I was continuously afraid because I was mentally and physically being abused almost on an everyday basis. Which left me with a broken soul and sleepless nights.

While I was living day in and day out in a prison-like home for 10years, I made a friend at school. She seemed to live her life freely while doing what she wanted to do. It wasn’t like she was doing anything mayor, I mean she was just a high school student, but she made me realize how much I would regret it if I end-up dead at that time. So, I started doing what every child does when things are not going their way. I started rebelling. Things got worst at home, but I didn’t mind because I was fighting for what I believed was right. After a while the situation became unbearable. I had several reasons why I didn’t want to leave all this time, but in the end, I choose for my happiness and left. I had fought the good fight.

The family of my friend I went to live with, were Christians, which allowed me to know the Christian faith a little bit more. Though I was a Muslim at the moment, I was very open towards other religions. Getting to know Christ has been the best thing that has ever happen to me. He transformed me from a fragile, broken and fearful girl, to a young woman who know who she is, whos she is, and what she is worth. I found peace in Christ that surpasses all understanding. I found rest in my soul and felt a love that I can’t begin to fantom. Christ did and is still doing all of that for me today through his death on the cross. John 3:16
For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life.

I believe that if I didn’t leave home, I probably wouldn’t have converted to Christianity as fast as I did. Because I grew up in a family that has been Muslims for generations and generations. I do believe that God called me to Himself since I was already searching for Him. I guess I can say that I was searching for Allah, but was found by Christ.

Jeremiah 29: 11: For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.

When I became a devoted Christian, the only thing that has truly helped me in my decision making is prayer and trust in God. The Bible teaches that the plans He has for us are plans to prosper us and not to harm us, plans that will give us hope and a future. Since He knows the beginning from the end and the end from the beginning, I have decided to trust in His plans for me. And His way has never been disappointing up-till now. Although I have to say that I don’t always directly see what He sees but, yet I choose to trust Him. Obedience to God is one of the major keys to Christianity.

Proverbs 3:5 – 6: Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways submit to him, and he will make your paths straight.

Posted in Life Lessons

"5 Life lessons from 5 books"

I lost count of the number of books I’ve read in 2019. I do remember that it wasn’t as much as I wanted it to be. But since it was the first year since I started reading books regularly, I consider it to be a success. I’ve learned some amazing things through them, things I want to remember forever.

1. The right fight: How to live a loving life – John Kennedy Vaughan

John uses 1 corinthians 13: 4 – 8 4Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. 5It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. 6Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. 7It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. 8Love never fails... To show us how if we don’t operate in love, we automatically start operating in fear.

I had listened to a lot of sermons on love and the importance of it. Especially as a Christian since it’s the greatest commandment in the Bible which Jesus Christ Himself taught us. But yet I only understood what love was after reading this book. I realized how much we as humans base our everyday decisions as well as our big decisions on fear… which is actually very normal since we live in a fallen world, but as Christian, we are called to be the light of the world, and our Lord asks of us to love above all things. The insight that I got from this book caused me to start reading way more than before. Because as weird as it sounds, I wasn’t aware of the fact that there were books on biblical themes written by Christian (pastors, prophets, apologist…)

When a person stops living in God-who is love-they cannot sustain the love in their lives that produces the blessings of fruit.

This book made me realize how much I was limiting my love for others based on the fear that it won’t be returned to me or simply because of pride. That might sound a bit weird doesn’t it?

If we believe love to be a feeling then we will continuously fight for the feeling we want-fight to win, fight to be respected, fight to not get hurt-and to destroy love itself in the process. What we are doing is fighting for what is beyond our control and, in the process, destroying what is within our control: the source of the feeling.

2. Silence: The power of quiet in a world full of noise -Thich nhat Hanh

To be alive and walk on the Earth is a miracle, and yet most of us are running as if there were some better places to get to.

I am at the age at which it seems like every decision I make will be vital to my future, which is a very scary thought. So, I have often found myself in situations where I was striving with all my might for something that honestly wasn’t even that important to me…
Besides that, the whole society seems to be telling us that we need to do more, which continuously pushes us to be the best/greatest. Less is never an option. Which continuously keeps us busy with everything and at the same time, with nothing.

What are we so afraid of? We may feel an inner void, a sense of isolation, of sorrow, of restlessness. We may feel desolate and unloved. We may feel that we lack something important. Some of these feelings are very old and have been with us always, underneath all our doing and our thinking. Having plenty of stimuli makes it easy for us to distract ourselves from what we’re feeling. But when there is silence, all these things present themselves clearly.

This book taught me the importance of enjoying the moment. It helped me enjoy the precious little moments of life, by just being still and letting myself take hold of the moment. Whenever I start stressing, getting irritated or angry, I remind myself to check if what I am stressing about, being irritated about or getting angry about it is that important to steal my peace.

3. The pursuit of Holiness – Jerry Bridges

What a strange kind of salvation do they desire that care not for holiness… they would be saved by Christ and yet be out of Christ in a fleshly state… They would have their sins forgiven, not that they may walk with God in love, in time to come, but that they may practice their enmity against Him without any fear of punishment.

This quote hits me so hard! These are things we barely speak or think about. Part of the reason I felt spoken to after reading this quote, is because of my lack of seeking for knowledge during those time and partially because I had never been taught the importance of being Holy like the way this book taught me. Even though I lived a devoted Christian life (or at least so I thought) and was part of a Chruch community.

It seemed that living a holy life was something for the pastors, apostels, prophets… those kinds of people. It seemed impossible for me as a simple servant. But I did know it was something that was part of being a Christian so, I prayed for it now and then, but never took it as something urgent. This book taught me that I too have a huge responsibility in my own holiness. It even says that God had already done His part by sending Christ to die for us. We are made Holy through the blood of Jesus Christ. And as the Holy Spirit lives in us, He always helps us to act out the desires of God in our lives.

4. The purpose driven life – Rick Warren

Before I read this book, I did things with the thought that God was for me. Meaning that He existed for my good. To help me, guide me and to give me my greatest desires (which were close to what I believed His desires were for me). As am writing this down I realize how stupid and crazy that sounds. But then again, in those times my faith was built on a prosperity Gospel. Which at the moment I didn’t know. I didn’t even know such a thing existed. After reading this book my eyes opened to certain things and that’s when I started having more and more disagreements within my local church.

You were made by God and for God – and until you understand that, life will never make sense. It is only in God that we discover our origin, our identity, our meaning, our purpose, our significance, and our destiny. Every other path leads to a dead end.

So what this book taught me was that I was made for God and not the other way around. And because He created me for Himself, He knows exactly why He made me. Certain things only started making sense after understanding and accepting this fact. These are the benefits the writter promises after finishing the book:

  • It will explain the meaning of your life.
  • It will simplify your life.
  • It will focus your life.
  • It will increase your motivation.
  • It will prepare you for eternity.

Am happy to say that they were not just empty words… The book really did do what the writer said it would.

‘Do not conform to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God’s will is—his good, pleasing and perfect will. ‘ Romans 12:2

5. Discerning the voice of God – Priscilla Shirer

There was one specific incident that got me very frustrated.
I dream a lot when am sleeping. The bible teaches us that one way God speaks to His people is through dreams. But these dreams were so symbolic and prophetic that I couldn’t even start to deceiver them with the little knowledge I had of God. So, because the bible also teaches us to pray for dreams, I prayed. But I wasn’t getting any answers. I got frustrated because I felt like I was doing everything the bible told me to do concerning these dreams but God still wasn’t answering me. I never asked for the dreams so, why wasn’t He answering me? This went on for several months. It even got to a point that I stopped praying and one way or another closed my Spirit from receiving dreams. So, yes the frustration was real!

Have you sincerely taken time to hear, to see, to wait, to watch-to allow for the margins that would give God an opportunity to offer you that which you claim to desire so earnestly? Or have you already filled every conceivable space with your own opinions, ideas, decisions, and actions-space that God might otherwise fill with His perfectly timed and precisioned and personal insight?

Y’all I tell you, I felt so convicted after reading that paragraph…
It just struck me! I wasn’t even listening, to begin with.
The worst part is that I’m known to be a very good listener. I love to listen to people. I am the kind of person who is very engaging in conversations by asking questions etc. But for one reason or another when it came to God, I never had the patience to listen long enough. It never struck me that I had to listen to Him as I listen to others around me.

I knew I wasn’t listening because I felt the conviction, but also because after reflecting on the situation, I could see that all I did was pray about it. I didn’t take time to see, hear or watch.

‘And he said to me, “Son of man, listen carefully and take to heart all the words I speak to you. ‘ Ezekiel 3:10

Which books have taught you lessons you will never forget? Let me know in the comment below. Have a blessed day!

Posted in Spiritual Discipline

Fasting

What is fasting?

The Bible teaches us that fasting = going without food for a period of time in order to focus on God through prayer.


To make the matter complete, we would add that fasting, if we conceive of it truly, must not only be confined to the question of food and drink; fasting should really be made to include abstince from anything which is legitimate in and of itself for the sake of some special spiritual purpose. There are many bodily functions that are right and normal and perfectly legitimate, but which for special peculiar reasons in certain circumstances should be controlled.

Martyn Lloyd-Jones


There are other ways to fast besides going without food. These ways the Bible doesn’t directly teach on, but the Bible does teach us to get rid of anything that can make us stumble (Matthew 5:30). In this generation, we have so much that can make us stumble. It’s pretty much like the world is waiting to cater to our sins and distractions. So, you might not have to cut your arm, but maybe the internet for some time, or social media whatever takes a lot of your time. The time you can spend in prayer or reading the Word of God.

Several Kinds of fasting:

  • Normal fast: abstaining from all food, but not from water (Matthew 4:2, Luke 4:2)
  • Partial fast: limitation of the diet, but not abstention from all food (Daniël 1:12, Matthew 3:4).
  • Absolute fast: abstaining from all food and drink (Ezra 10:6, Esther 4:16)
  • Private fast: fasting in a way not to be noticed by others. (Matthew 6: 16 – 18)There are some others as well, but I would like to leave it at this for this post.

I do want to mention that point 4 is actually something that is always included in every fast. We are not to go around telling people of the fact that we are fasting. 

For the problem is not wether another person knows or asks about your fast, but wether you want him or her to know or asks so you can appear more spiritual.

Donald S. Whitney


Godly fasting:
= fasting with the purpose to get closer to God.​ Examples of Godly fasts:

  • To strengthen prayer (Daniel 9: 3)

Fasting is calculated to bring a note of urgency and importunity into our prayer, and to give force to our pleading in the court of heaven. The man who prays with fasting is giving heaven notice that he is truly in earnestness in a divinely appointed way. He is using a means that God has chosen to make his voice to be heard on high.

Arthur Wallis
  • To seek God’s guidance (Acts 14:23)

You can pray about any decision that can have a direct impact on your life. The new year fasting I spoke about in my last post is a good example of this kind of fasting. I have been fasting at the beginning of every year for the past 3 years, simply to ask for the guidance of God throughout the year. Another example of this kind of fasting was when I fasted for the right college, right subject to study and the right place to live. So, like I said before it really can be about anything that can have a direct impact on your life.

  • To express grief (1 Samuel 20:34)

“Fasting can be a means of expressing grief for the sins of others, such as for the sins of people within your church or for sins by your country.” For example, The moment that the Holy Spirit really started working in me, he opened my eyes not only to see my own sins but also the sins of my church members and of my country. It was more the general sins that others might see as just something minor. For a week-long I had such an extreme sadness living in me, a heaviness on my chest I simply can’t explain. So, I decided to fast and pray for all our sins. To express my grief towards God, beg for mercy and ask for protection for those who did what they did out of lack of knowledge.

  • To seek Deliverance or Protection (Esther ​4:16)

15Then Esther sent this reply to Mordecai: 16“Go, gather together all the Jews who are in Susa, and fast for me. Do not eat or drink for three days, night or day. I and my attendants will fast as you do. When this is done, I will go to the king, even though it is against the law. And if I perish, I perish.”

  • To express Repentance and the Return to God (Joel 2:12)

In 2018 I fasted once every week for exactly this reason. Because I was very aware of the fact that going to church on Sundays alone wasn’t enough to keep growing as a Christian. Besides that, I also knew that the flow of life could take me away from the path of God. So, I fasted to ask for forgiveness for any sin I might have committed in that week and it also served as a remembrance to return to God.

  • To humble oneself before God (Psalm 35:13)

This is also one of the reasons why I fasted once a week in the year 2018. It truly helped me humble my self before God because it reminded me how much I needed God.

By this we must not conclude that the act of fasting has some virtuous power, and that we have made ourselves more humble; there is no virtue in fallen man by which he can make himself more godly; there is, however, virtue in the divinely appointed means of grace. If we, by the power of the Holy Spirit, mortify the deeds of the body (through fasting), we shall grow in grace, but the glory of such change will be God’s alone. For as long as I can remember I was thaught that because fasting itself is a sacrifice, the act itself is more than enough to get God’s favor for what I was fasting for. Which in essence didn’t make any sense, because it will then come to the fact that I’m getting paid for my work, which goes against the sovereignty and grace of God.

David Smith
  • To express concern for the work of God (Nehemiah 1: 3 – 4)

They said to me, “Those who survived the exile and are back in the province are in great trouble and disgrace. The wall of Jerusalem is broken down, and its gates have been burned with fire.” 4When I heard these things, I sat down and wept. For some days I mourned and fasted and prayed before the God of heaven.

  • ​To minister to the needs of others (Isaiah 58)

I have never done this kind of fasting, but I use to be a Muslim and during the Ramadan it is known to be on your best behavior, combine with good deeds for the poor. But what I noticed is that as sincere those deeds were, they also almost disappeared after the Ramadan period. Most of us also simply went back to our old ways after the fasting period. Isaiah says it all in

Isaiah 58: … For day after day they seek me out;they seem eager to know my ways, as if they were a nation that does what is right and has not forsaken the commands of its God. They ask me for just decisions and seem eager for God to come near them. … “Yet on the day of your fasting, you do as you pleaseand exploit all your workers. 4Your fasting ends in quarreling and strife, and in striking each other with wicked fists. You cannot fast as you do today and expect your voice to be heard on high.

  • To overcome temptation and dedicate yourself to God (Matthew 4: 1 – 11)

One principle we learn form Jesus’ example is this: Fasting is a way to overcoming temptation and of freshly dedicating ourselves to the Father.

Donald S. Whitney

There are general things that tempt us all, but there are also more specific areas of our personal lives that might be or bring temptations into our lives. It is of great importance to take action against this. Because sin that one doesn’t address might grow to lead one to the end.

  • To express Love and Worship to God (Luke 2: 37)

The very first time I fasted as a Christian was to express my gratitude toward God for His mercy and Grace. As you might have read in my introduction post, I use to have a very hard time living at home which led to some horrible experiences. So, I fasted to thank God for getting me out of that situation and for not giving up on me. Do know that if your expression of love and worship is not sincere during your fasting, it will become a very hard fasting period. But if it is, it will be so much easier! I personally bearly felt anything at all. ​

Fasting with a purpose

I’ve already spoken about this in the New year fasting post, but I would like to add this to it.

Whitout a purpose, fasting can be a miserable, self-centred experience about willpower and endurance. Whithout a clear biblical purpose, fasting becomes an end in itself. Every hunger pang only makes you calculate the time remaining until you can eat. Such thinking disconnects the experience in your mind and heart from the gospel and descends into the deception that perhaps your suffering will earn God’s favor. Although the physical discomfort is unpleasing, perhaps even painful, it is important to feel some degree of hunger during your fast. Your hunger helps you, serving as continual reminder of your spiritual purpose.

Donald S. Whitney

Fasting and prayer

Fasting without prayer is a huge waste of time. It’s no different from a simple diet. I have heard this being said: “Being a Christian is like having a weapon and the bullet of that weapon is prayer”.

In giving us the privilege of fasting as well as praying God had added a powerful weapon to our spiritual armory.

Arthur Wallis

Even though the Bible teaches us that Jesus expected us to pray (Matthew 6: 16 – 17), prayer is one of the most neglected spiritual disciplines. I must confess that my prayer life is way beneath what I would like it to be aswell, but this doesn’t keep me from praying during any fasting period I commit myself to. I have experienced that fasting really does strength one’s prayer life. 

Maybe a small tip if you are having difficulties praying: you can use the Psalm to pray, It really contains about every subject we deal with as Christians. Besides that, there are also prayer books you can buy. You can start with those, as you use those, you will start to have words of your own. But the best way to learn how to pray is by reading the Bible. Because prayer is in some way an expression of what one knows about God. You can’t speak of what you don’t know.

Your heart position while doing Godly purposed kind of fasting is of great importance to God. God, in general, is way more interested in our heart posture than anything else. So, definitely consider your reason for fasting, reflects on if you are doing it for the right reason? or just as a religious duty?

Any blessing which is bestowed by the Father upon His undeserving children must be considered to be an act of grace. We fail to appreciate the mercy of the Lord if we think that by our doing something we have forced (or even coerced) God to grant that blessing which we have asked for… All of our fasting, therefore, must be on this basis; we should use scriptural means whereby we are melted into a more complete realization of the purposes of the Lord in our life, church, community, and nation.

David Smith

Source:

 Book: “Spiritual disciplines for the Christian life”​ (pages 191 – 2019)

The Bible: see the verses noted in the text.

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About

Hi,

My name is Hawanatu Dumbuya

I am a young woman who used to go through life without any hope, depressed, angry, aggressive, anxious, … I could go on for a while. I lived my life on an automatic pilot day in and day out. While being abused verbally, mentally, physically …, in the comfort of my own home (or at least that’s what it was supposed to be. A home). A young bright, lively and kind girl ends up living (or should I say exciting) just like that day in and day out.

This is the awful truth about my life before Christ found me and breathed life into me again. He gave me my joy back, thaught me true love, I found a peace that I cannot fantom, thaught me who I am and showed me what I am worth. I, who used to live such an empty life, now my cup runs over! And that’s exactly the reason why I’ve started this blog. I know how many more people are still struggling with the same things that I have gone through and now I’ve been set free from all those bondages, I want nothing else but to share my journey with others. I hope to inspire non-Christians to take some kind of interest in the Christian faith because, as a living testimony I tell you that Jesus Christ is the savior the world needs. I also hope to inspire those who already are Christians to take the next step in their Christian lifestyle.
Just so to be clear am not a perfect Christian, I don’t have everything in order, I still have my ups and downs as I am trying to fulfill my God-given purpose, I have tons of questions and doubts, but all I know is that I don’t want to live a second without Jesus Christ. Life is simply not worth living without Him.


So, Welcome into my deepest thoughts and let’s get this journey started!